It’s over =D …Well, sort of, anyway.

I’m sitting here on the edge of my bed, glasses off, and half blind. Food is starting to make me feel sick as a dog, but that is because the only caffeine I have taken since validating my word count was the caffeine that woke me up from my ill stupor earlier—a head-cold has had me groggy, sick to my guts, and woozy most of the day. I don’t plan on taking more caffeine besides what’s in my medications and vitamins.

I’m reading a book that I downloaded from the Nook store almost immediately after finishing the validation count. It’s kind of a bookend moment—it’s the second book in the series that was the last thing I read for pleasure before the competition started. (In fact, here’s my review of that one.)

It feels good to be reading again, feeling the squee at the moments where I really notice how many scantily-clad pretty boys there are, the heat of the romance (surprisingly, in a het pairing), and the laugh-out-loud moments that are liberally sprinkled through Heroine Protagonist Rae Wilder’s journey.

I feel so good reading and I stop to think, then, that I hope that my own writing has the same effects on some readers out there. I know that there will invariably be the “I HATED THIS AND DIDN’T EVEN FINISH IT” sorts, but I know that there will be other readers who react as enthusiastically as I am now to this book that I am reading now.


I…am going to have one HELL of a time adjusting to the sudden reduction in caffeine intake. I spent most of this November neck-deep in either a bottle of energy drink (most of it Sodastream, half a litre at a time [?!]), an espresso, a restaurant coffee drink, or in a few cases a bottle of caffeine pills, violently throwing my way shoulders through in the long stretch of time that the ink was flying around. Several times I thought that I wouldn’t make it—there wasn’t enough time, there weren’t enough words, there wasn’t enough CAFFEINE—and then, working on a fight scene, validating the count after every few paragraphs…I win.

I make it.

I didn’t want to put my hands to a keyboard for the next few months. I didn’t even want to celebrate my victory—premature as it is, the story isn’t done, not by a long shot—and I didn’t want to look at WORDS.

…then I realized that I could read. I could read for fun.

Like everyone else.

I’m going to resume reading now, probably put together a bottle of plain seltzer because the caffeine withdrawal nausea is HELL right now…but diving into a story that another writer put together, pouring her effort, time, frustrations, and joy into it…I remember why I want to do this in the first place.

 

I’m going back to my reading, icing my aching head.

I can keep writing AFTER the caffeine withdrawal wears off.

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3 thoughts on “It’s over =D …Well, sort of, anyway.

  1. When you are done reading, get back to writing.

  2. WordsFallFromMyEyes says:

    Love the description of you in the beginning, glasses off, half blind, on your bed.

    As for your month of energy drinks, caffeine… YUCK! I don’t know how you survived it! But it’s great you’ve come out the other end, to undo damage. Good on you!

    I only have one, max 2, coffees a day – any more & I do feel sick. Don’t know how you can do it.

    Cheers Railenthe 🙂

    • I can take an alarming amount of caffeine before I start to have a problem. I discovered it when Ritalin got expensive and made my brain like “Geh-hah? Wha?”

      As it turns out, if there’s nothing for my ideas to pinball off of in my head, they just sort of…fizzle.Like a brainzap, only more insidious, because where a brainzap is a “Ok, let’s get to doing…..what again??” my un-stimulanted brain is like “Hey, you know…er…the thing…yeah…with the stuff?” The idea never gets started!

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